There are many
things that come up in life unexpectedly that can just throw us off track. Since having our little girl KaydeeJo in August
2015, my eating habits have been amazing.
I gave up pop, I was cooking our meals and we weren’t eating out, I even
got rid of my candy stash that I had during my pregnancy. Over the holidays I was really watching
myself and not over eating or binge eating all of the yummy desserts. I was feeling really good. I was almost down to my pre-pregnancy weight
with just a few pounds to go. All my
baby weight was lost with just healthy eating habits and working out maybe once
a week. Then out of no were our son Aiden
just kept getting sick and after a few months of him feeling not well, I just
broke down.
It all started
with Aiden getting an eye infection around Christmas time. Our poor little man couldn’t open his eyes
because they were sealed shut from all of the gunk. All he wanted to do was lie
in our bed with his baby (which is what he calls his blanket) and watch his
favorite show Blaze and the Monster Machines.
After about a week, his eye infection cleared up. He had a couple of
good days where he was back to his normal self.
He was playing with his trucks he got for Christmas, running around, and
playing with his sisters. For New Year’s Eve we went to Idaho to visit family. It
was at this time that he started showing signs of a urinary tract infection or
UTI. All of a sudden he didn’t want to go to the bathroom anymore. He actually
held in his urine for 30 hours, he didn’t even go in his sleep! At first we thought that he is ready to be
potty-trained since he is 2 ½ years old, but then it he started to cry when he would
finally did pee and the only way to get him to go to the bathroom was if I put
him in the tub with warm water. We finally took him to the doctor and after getting
his urine tested we found out that sure enough, he had a UTI. Aiden was on antibiotics for 10 days. He
started to act like himself again but within two days he started showing signs
again of another UTI and running a fever.
Once again we took him to the doctor and got his urine tested again.
This time we were prescribed a different, stronger antibiotic. The dose was tripled and he received a shot
of antibiotics in both legs to get him started right away. At this point I just
feel so sad and helpless for my little guy.
I am praying that this antibiotic works. The doctor did seem to be
concerned about his kidneys because boys usually don’t get UTI’s. So know we have to get tests done on his kidneys
to make sure everything is okay. Aiden
at this point wanted nothing to do with the pediatrician and just wanted to be
home in our bed and watching Blaze and the Monster Machines. This seems to be
his new normal just lying in bed and watching his favorite show. Luckily, within 24 hours, Aiden started feeling
better. It stopped hurting him when he
had to use the bathroom and when he did go he would grin and scream for joy “it
didn’t hurt when I pee!” Everyone was so excited and happy for him every time
he peed and it didn’t hurt. It was such
a celebration! Aiden was back to running
around the house, playing with his toys, and making messes. It was nice to hear him laugh and play
again. But after a few days of having
our happy little boy back, bad luck hit him once again, and he started having
episodes of asthma attacks. In just a
day his attacks got so bad that the nebulizer we have did nothing for him. It is hard to watch your child struggle to breathe,
especially after what he has already been through. So once again we find ourselves driving to the
pediatrician’s office, late at night. As
soon as we pull up to the building he starts to cry. He is just not feeling well and does not want
to be at the pediatrician’s office and frankly I just don’t blame him. But thankfully, this is a more pleasant trip.
There were no shots given this time and he just needed a prescription and we
were on our way home. After one day of
being on his medication Aiden is back to himself again and it is the best feeling. Nothing is better than to see your baby smile
and laugh after being in pain and in bed for the past two months. I don’t even care about the messes he is
leaving in every room, I am just glad to have our happy boy back.
When
I am under stress my healthy eating habits go right out the window. My anxiety is usually through the roof and I cannot
eat or I only crave junk food. After Aiden
was sick with his second UTI I found myself frustrated and helpless. Life just seemed to be a bit overwhelming and
it didn’t help that it was gloomy outside.
The weather actually seemed to fit my mood, grey and gloomy. This is when I turned to pop, brownies and
fast food to help me feel better. Food is just comforting and when I am feeling
down an apple just does not appeal to me. There was a voice in the back of my head
telling me not to give in and that you will regret it but at this point I have
zero will power and I just do not care. I feel that there are times in your
life when you need to have these moments.
I think that it is perfectly okay to let yourself fall apart. If I need
to, I will eat all the junk until my little heart is content and cry on the
floor because I am so upset. And after a
few hours or a day of having my moment I will pick myself back up because what’s
done is done, so I own it, learn from it, let it go, and move along.
Photos taken by Brock Best.
www.brockbestphotography.com
